“I thought it would get easier, but it’s been about six months now and it’s still so hard,” Ashley, 34, toldE! News,. “There’s some moments of missing our relationship and when I see him being a really good dad it’s like, ‘Oh man, could I? Should I?’ because he is still a great dad and a hands-on parent and that’s what I find so attractive about him.”
The reality star said she “never knew how many conflicting emotions a person has” during the process until she endured it herself.
“Going through this process now and sharing it with the whole world, it made me really nervous,” she continued, referencing how her breakup will be featured on the upcoming seventh season ofRHOP. “It made me nervous to be vulnerable and share my feelings. I was like, ‘Am I going to look weak?’ So I was really apprehensive about it, but ultimately it was therapeutic to share my feelings and to have the support of my friends.”
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Though she does want to start dating again, Ashley said she’s taking things “slow” for now.
“When I was dating before Michael, there was no online dating — the whole landscape looked so different and honestly it’s petrifying now,” she explained. “The stories I hear and all these wolves in sheeps' clothing. I’m definitely going very, very snail-paced slow. I’m a little scared.”
Ashley wed Michael, 63, in 2014. Together, the pair would go on to welcome sonsDean, 3, andDylan, 13 months.
The Bravolebrityannounced the twosome’s separationin April after eight years of marriage. At the time, she indicated that the former couple “will always love and respect each other” despite calling it quits.
She continued, “We are now both at very different stages in our lives and have different goals for our futures. We both want the other to achieve true happiness and fulfillment and feel that we cannot do this together.”
A source later told PEOPLE that Ashley and Michaelhad “been having serious problems for about a year now.”
“There’s been a visceral disconnect between them as a couple,” the source continued. “For Ashley, the inconsistencies within the relationship and trust issues led to the split.”
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Season 7 ofThe Real Housewives of Potomacpremieres Oct. 9 at 8 p.m. ET on Bravo.
source: people.com
